Spent the better half of this past weekend catching up with my friend C, who is an intense bundle of ideas and energy. We certainly have some interesting discussions over our shared interests.
Among the both of us there's also a shared feeling that there's never enough time to do all that we want to do nor to get it all done. Though this might sound exhausting to some, being around someone of such intensity is both comforting and troubling.
We have both felt overwhelmed at times- juggling all of the things each of us has on our respective plates. But, these are choices that each of us has made, to try make the most of our lives.
Being around a like-minded person is definitely a strong form of validation, but it's also a double edged sword. There's a danger in reinforcing certain well intentioned tendencies, which could just as easily become a "bad habit." In the most extreme of cases a person might end up overextending him or herself at the expense of his or her own personal life or health.
Why do I choose to involve myself (perhaps overinvolving myself) in all of the things that I do?
One of my friends recently suggested that I do all of these things to feel that I'm a person of worth, but that I don't need to do all of this because I am a person of worth already- just for who I am, the person I am, the friend, daughter, sister, teacher, woman that I am.
Well perhaps it is true that I don't give myself enough credit for all the things I do, or the things I don't know I do (i.e. the things that I don't know or realize that benefit others). But I'd rather think that it's because I feel that I need to make every moment count. I spent too much of my youth with my head in the clouds. I'd like to think I still haven't lost my idealism, but it's time to make things happen!
